Since recently opening up about my miscarriage, I have received so many messages from women who too have gone through the same thing. Some have gone through pregnancy related issues and had never spoken about it. The fact that miscarriage is SO common and often a conversation many people avoid, the truth of the matter is that it happens and there should be NO SHAME attached to it. The topic shouldn't be taboo...our scars and our pain can help someone else! While initially I was nervous to share, I felt the tug in my spirit and I wanted to be obedient to what God has called me to do.
Have you ever felt like you literally just wanted to crawl outside of your body?
Like you’re just so disgusted by what’s happening within you that you want to escape it? That’s exactly how I feel going through a NATURAL MISCARRIAGE. There was not much physical pain (in the beginning), just lots of blood and heartache. My mind was foggy for a while trying to grasp what was taking place. I was present but not present. Just dazed. One moment we were celebrating our pregnancy and excitedly accepting our new beginning, and within days I was in the Emergency Room being told by the Dr., “I’m sorry but I don’t have good news.” Urine test, Blood work, ultrasound...no baby. Just like that GONE! I knew there wouldn't be a miracle taking place THIS time.
It has been far too long since I've been in this space of writing...sharing...encouraging. I apologize. The last couple months of 2017 were a whirlwind for me and my family. Between the Holidays, running 2 businesses and contemplating huge life decisions LIFE WAS ALL OVER THE PLACE! And now that we are midway through January, life is still busy and I am trying to find balance. Oh and to add to the "crazy", we are relocating to Dallas, TX in about 4 weeks!