Blessings

These are the days...

These are the days, the ones we prayed for and l was hopeful would come. The days where we could pack our bags, hop in the car and go make family memories! These are the days I dreamt up in mind while my baby boy fought so hard in the NICU. I pause to breathe in the moments, I try to absorb the feeling of newness. This season of life is one that I've never known but one that I am appreciating. This time last Summer I was pregnant and just getting a handle on being so sick with hyperemesis graviderium. And then not too soon after, I went into pre-term labor,  delivered at 22 weeks, 6 days, had to recover from an emergency c-section and made back and forth trips to the NICU for 119 days. With ALL of those things going on, there wasn't a huge opportunity to do many family fun things. We didn't have the opportunity to blissfully enjoy the beautiful weather. Now that Summer is here we aren't holding back on getting out in the sun and making beautiful family memories that we've waited so long for.

Spirit lead me, where my trust is without borders......

Spirit lead me, where my trust is without borders......

Over the last few weeks there have a been few trips to our favorite park, the pier, trips to get fro-yo and even managed to go to a private beach. Its such a great feeling to see my baby boy exploring all of the sights, sounds and different sensations. This weekend he experienced sand and the ocean! I must admit, I had a little trepidation about the ocean- my worse nightmare is that I will get swept away in the large mass of water and although I can swim somehow the waves would overtake me. Despite this, I pressed past my anxiety and refuse to be bound by fear. I don't want my fears to control my son either. So we packed our bags and drove up the coast to Shaw's Cove which is tucked away in Laguna Beach. Marc and I were so excited to experience this as a family of 3, we weren't sure how Jaxson would respond to the water and the sand but figured we would expose him to it and see what happens. 

It turns out that we indeed have a water baby on our hands! Jaxson LOVED feeling the sand on his feet and the cool water brushing through his toes. It's one of the greatest feelings in the world as a parent to watch your child grow and learn. Having a joyful baby despite his early struggles is one of the greatest blessings. We had so much fun and decided that we would definitely take the trip at least once more before Summers end.

So I encourage you, no matter what season of life you are currently in, take some time to create memories. It doesn't always require a lot of money- creating memories is something so priceless. Make it a point to try new things- or plan a couple of activities that have been on your to-do list. The moments you celebrate today are bound to become amazing memories that are sure to last a lifetime! And God is so faithful, He will allow you to have the desires of your heart. He will restore everything you've lost. For us NICU moms, we have lost time. But God will restore everything you lost and He will have compassion on you! He will give you a good life and make your days even more plentiful. Just rest in Him and trust Him. (Deuteronomy 30:3)

Oh the places you will go...

Oh the places you will go...

 

 

Mother's Day

What an honor it is to be a MOTHER. God has given me the biggest blessing and responsibility in becoming a Mom. I was talking to a friend of mine and we kinda chuckled over the fact that we are mother's. It was a dream since childhood to have a family so the fact that God allowed it to happen still blows my mind sometimes. For me getting pregnant wasn't complicated, but as you know midway through my pregnancy complications began thus leading to my son being born prematurely. So I'll say that the road to motherhood wasn't completely "easy", but its all been worth it. I've learned so much about myself since carrying my son in my womb and thus being his mother everyday.

Pregnancy Announcement- Mother's Day 2015

Pregnancy Announcement- Mother's Day 2015

Celebrating this year was beautiful and amazing. I felt so grateful and happy to have the functioning role as Jaxson's Mom. On Mother's Day 2015, I was almost 12 weeks pregnant and pretty sick. I was struggling with hyperemisis graviderium but managed to have a good day with the assistance of anti-nausea medication. Because of my condition last year, and simply wanting to do something different, my husband and I decided to host a Mother's Day Brunch at our house for our families. We cooked a full spread, played games gushed over my little baby bump. On that day we also announced to the world that we were expecting!

Fast forward to 2016 and I was able to celebrate with my loved ones AND my little bundle of joy. We stuck with the same tradition and decided to host Mother's Day brunch at our home again. Hubby and I cooked a lovely spread which consisted of: Belgian waffles, fried chicken, eggs, smothered potatoes, and bacon! Yum! The food was amazing and the love I received was such a blessing.

After Church with Jaxson- Mother's Day 2016

After Church with Jaxson- Mother's Day 2016

Jaxson also enjoyed being the center of attention- he was surrounded by so much love and by the end of the night once he was bathed he was fast asleep until 10am the next morning!!! Family is an amazing blessing, one that I do not take for granted. Yes, being a mother is hard sometimes and exhausting but I don't take any of it for granted. I cherish all of the moments and every morning, even if its REALLY early, hearing my son laugh and babble is such a reward. Thinking back to where we started allows me to be grateful that we are living some of our best days, these are the days we prayed for and my heart is beyond full!

I hope you all had an enjoyable MOTHER'S DAY. My heart goes out to those that may be struggling on the journey to motherhood, Mommies to Angel babies, daughters who have lost their mothers and all of the NICU Mommy's who sit at their babies bedside daily, hoping and praying for a miracle. You are loved!

Fight

Fight

You may be going through a fight of your own, be it a health challenge, relationship or marital issue, dysfunction on the job- I want to encourage you to dig deep within yourself and pull out the fight that's within you. You have courage and the power to fight through whatever hardship you may be faced with. Sometimes when life hits us hard, we just want to pull the covers over our heads and hope the issue resolves itself. Even when I wanted to do that, I knew I couldn't stay in that place.