As a mother to a baby given 20% chance of survival, I couldn't be more grateful for Jaxson's life and good health. 2 years ago I was in the hospital receiving grim statistics and predictions on what could be of my sons health- and what do you know, my son with the help of God proves EVERYONE wrong! With exception of his speech delay he is miraculous and not showing signs that he was born at 22 weeks 6 days. His life is a reminder that good things DO happen to those who believe!
These are the days, the ones we prayed for and l was hopeful would come. The days where we could pack our bags, hop in the car and go make family memories! These are the days I dreamt up in mind while my baby boy fought so hard in the NICU. I pause to breathe in the moments, I try to absorb the feeling of newness. This season of life is one that I've never known but one that I am appreciating. This time last Summer I was pregnant and just getting a handle on being so sick with hyperemesis graviderium. And then not too soon after, I went into pre-term labor, delivered at 22 weeks, 6 days, had to recover from an emergency c-section and made back and forth trips to the NICU for 119 days. With ALL of those things going on, there wasn't a huge opportunity to do many family fun things. We didn't have the opportunity to blissfully enjoy the beautiful weather. Now that Summer is here we aren't holding back on getting out in the sun and making beautiful family memories that we've waited so long for.
Over the last few weeks there have a been few trips to our favorite park, the pier, trips to get fro-yo and even managed to go to a private beach. Its such a great feeling to see my baby boy exploring all of the sights, sounds and different sensations. This weekend he experienced sand and the ocean! I must admit, I had a little trepidation about the ocean- my worse nightmare is that I will get swept away in the large mass of water and although I can swim somehow the waves would overtake me. Despite this, I pressed past my anxiety and refuse to be bound by fear. I don't want my fears to control my son either. So we packed our bags and drove up the coast to Shaw's Cove which is tucked away in Laguna Beach. Marc and I were so excited to experience this as a family of 3, we weren't sure how Jaxson would respond to the water and the sand but figured we would expose him to it and see what happens.
It turns out that we indeed have a water baby on our hands! Jaxson LOVED feeling the sand on his feet and the cool water brushing through his toes. It's one of the greatest feelings in the world as a parent to watch your child grow and learn. Having a joyful baby despite his early struggles is one of the greatest blessings. We had so much fun and decided that we would definitely take the trip at least once more before Summers end.
So I encourage you, no matter what season of life you are currently in, take some time to create memories. It doesn't always require a lot of money- creating memories is something so priceless. Make it a point to try new things- or plan a couple of activities that have been on your to-do list. The moments you celebrate today are bound to become amazing memories that are sure to last a lifetime! And God is so faithful, He will allow you to have the desires of your heart. He will restore everything you've lost. For us NICU moms, we have lost time. But God will restore everything you lost and He will have compassion on you! He will give you a good life and make your days even more plentiful. Just rest in Him and trust Him. (Deuteronomy 30:3)