I needed my tribe at that moment, except, I don't really have a tribe. It hurts to even write that but its my truth. My days are spent with my baby boy and the friends that I do have mostly live out of state- so that in some ways creates a different dynamic. Over the last year I've become numb to the fact that so many people have left my life. People grow things change, its life I get it and if I really take the time to think about it, it actually hurts a little.
What an honor it is to be a MOTHER. God has given me the biggest blessing and responsibility in becoming a Mom. I was talking to a friend of mine and we kinda chuckled over the fact that we are mother's. It was a dream since childhood to have a family so the fact that God allowed it to happen still blows my mind sometimes. For me getting pregnant wasn't complicated, but as you know midway through my pregnancy complications began thus leading to my son being born prematurely. So I'll say that the road to motherhood wasn't completely "easy", but its all been worth it. I've learned so much about myself since carrying my son in my womb and thus being his mother everyday.
Celebrating this year was beautiful and amazing. I felt so grateful and happy to have the functioning role as Jaxson's Mom. On Mother's Day 2015, I was almost 12 weeks pregnant and pretty sick. I was struggling with hyperemisis graviderium but managed to have a good day with the assistance of anti-nausea medication. Because of my condition last year, and simply wanting to do something different, my husband and I decided to host a Mother's Day Brunch at our house for our families. We cooked a full spread, played games gushed over my little baby bump. On that day we also announced to the world that we were expecting!
Fast forward to 2016 and I was able to celebrate with my loved ones AND my little bundle of joy. We stuck with the same tradition and decided to host Mother's Day brunch at our home again. Hubby and I cooked a lovely spread which consisted of: Belgian waffles, fried chicken, eggs, smothered potatoes, and bacon! Yum! The food was amazing and the love I received was such a blessing.
Jaxson also enjoyed being the center of attention- he was surrounded by so much love and by the end of the night once he was bathed he was fast asleep until 10am the next morning!!! Family is an amazing blessing, one that I do not take for granted. Yes, being a mother is hard sometimes and exhausting but I don't take any of it for granted. I cherish all of the moments and every morning, even if its REALLY early, hearing my son laugh and babble is such a reward. Thinking back to where we started allows me to be grateful that we are living some of our best days, these are the days we prayed for and my heart is beyond full!
I hope you all had an enjoyable MOTHER'S DAY. My heart goes out to those that may be struggling on the journey to motherhood, Mommies to Angel babies, daughters who have lost their mothers and all of the NICU Mommy's who sit at their babies bedside daily, hoping and praying for a miracle. You are loved!