Since recently opening up about my miscarriage, I have received so many messages from women who too have gone through the same thing. Some have gone through pregnancy related issues and had never spoken about it. The fact that miscarriage is SO common and often a conversation many people avoid, the truth of the matter is that it happens and there should be NO SHAME attached to it. The topic shouldn't be taboo...our scars and our pain can help someone else! While initially I was nervous to share, I felt the tug in my spirit and I wanted to be obedient to what God has called me to do.
Failure: lack of success
This is a word that should be obliterated from the vocabulary of women. People period. I remember after I gave birth to Jaxson I struggled with feelings of guilt and failure. I told myself and really believed that my body failed me and failed to keep my baby growing. Although I had done everything right I still in some ways felt it was my fault he was born prematurely. I fought with these feelings each and every day for MONTHS! Sometimes the thoughts were debilitating and brought tears to my eyes.
We planned the celebration in 6 weeks and our friends and family were happy to come out and celebrate Jaxson's birth although he was still in the NICU. I thought it would be a little weird not actually being pregnant at my shower but I didn't feel sadness. I knew I needed to go through with the event and pull out all the stops because Jaxson was my first and possibly my last. I would've regretted not being able to experience a shower of my own.