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YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE

YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE

Failure: lack of success

This is a word that should be obliterated from the vocabulary of women. People period. I remember after I gave birth to Jaxson I struggled with feelings of guilt and failure. I told myself and really believed that my body failed me and failed to keep my baby growing. Although I had done everything right I still in some ways felt it was my fault he was born prematurely. I fought with these feelings each and every day for MONTHS! Sometimes the thoughts were debilitating and brought tears to my eyes. 

NICU Grace

NICU Grace

The NICU...
This is the place where I found my strength, where I learned what true love and sacrifice meant. A place where Jesus literally held my hand day in and day out as we watched Him perform a miracle for our baby boy. Yesterday Jaxson and I went to visit and drop off our family Christmas card. So many of his old nurses came or to see us and were so excited to see his progress. Before we left one of his old Neonatologist came to speak. We hadn't seen eye to eye on many things during his NICU stay. My family and I believed in miracles she believed in science and only science. Her words.