You never know how strong you are until being strong is your ONLY option.
I nearly froze as I heard the words enter through one ear and out the other. I wasn’t expecting for the Woman who had just packaged my salmon Kroger to blurt out that question. My 4 year old was standing a couple feet away from me whining a little for a “doy doy” aka DOUGHNUT! I was shocked and taken aback. What prompted this question? Was is because he is wearing glasses? Was it his whining? I don’t know but it was so left field and literally shocking. I personally would NEVER blurt out a question about someones child.
Kamryn is officially 4 months old! 4 MONTHS!!!!!! My baby girl is growing up so quickly! She is so alert, aware and bursting with a beautiful personality. It’s really been a blessing to experience Motherhood in a different way this time around. I’ve literally watched her grow and change so much in just 4 short months. And having her with us from day 1 without having to spend any time in the NICU has just been so wonderful. She has discovered her hands (which she loves to put in her mouth) and most recently she started touching her feet while doing a half roll to the side. She is fascinated by Jaxson and loves when we talk to her. Her little smile just warms my heart and her happiness brings us so much joy! Oh, and she is a GOOD sleeper Praise Jesus!
February 11th was truly one of the best days of my life. It’s the day one of my biggest dreams came to pass…I gave birth to a healthy full term baby girl! My husband and I went to L&D at 5am for my scheduled c-section. I remember walking through those doors confident and feeling beyond grateful to have made it 38 weeks! We didn’t get much sleep the night before as we were excited and wrapping up some loose ties at the house. I knew we would be admitted for a few days, so it was important for me to have things in order beforehand. This would also be the first time I spent an extended time away from Jaxson since his NICU days-so I needed to make sure I had things situated for him before I gave birth. It was important for me to keep his routine the same while he was in the care of my Mom. Life as we knew it was about to change forever and I wanted him to feel safe during this huge transition.
Being pregnant after a preemie is one of the most mentally challenging things I’ve done. People often ask me what was the second factor on having another baby after Jaxson. My number 1 answer is: “Choosing the RIGHT DOCTOR!” And on February 11th, we were beyond grateful for the choice we made. I delivered a healthy baby girl via scheduled C-Section at 38 weeks which was our goal. I cried tears of joy on the operating room table as my OB held my baby girl up for me to see. it was such sweet relief! And to see how equally happy my Doctor was for us was the icing on the cake.
So here I am 32 weeks…8 MONTHS pregnant!!!!
To say I am grateful to have made it this far would be putting it lightly! Giving birth 3 years ago to my son at 22 weeks 6 days was scary and completely life changing. The experience really left my husband and I a bit terrified to try again. But with time, our hearts and minds changed. Going into this pregnancy, we knew it would be a lot different and would require a great deal to make it full term. But with lot’s of prayer, and an amazing OB here we are!! Our journey to this pregnancy started after having a miscarriage back in Feb 2018. After my check up to make sure I was healing well from that, we had a sit down with my OB to discuss a plan of care.