Being pregnant after a preemie is one of the most mentally challenging things I’ve done. People often ask me what was the second factor on having another baby after Jaxson. My number 1 answer is: “Choosing the RIGHT DOCTOR!” And on February 11th, we were beyond grateful for the choice we made. I delivered a healthy baby girl via scheduled C-Section at 38 weeks which was our goal. I cried tears of joy on the operating room table as my OB held my baby girl up for me to see. it was such sweet relief! And to see how equally happy my Doctor was for us was the icing on the cake.
If you’ve been following along on Instagram then you’ll know that my pregnancy has been moving right along! I’m in my 20th week and baby C is right on track. I began getting Makena (progestrone) injections at 16 weeks, in hopes of carrying full term! The auto injectors shots are administered behind the arm and they BURN! I mean literally my arm feels like it is on fire for at least an hour to 2 post shot. I’ve gotten 5 so far and the burning is sensation is getting more tolerable, but I have starting to have soreness and knots at the injection site. Ice packs are my friends :)
Have you ever felt like you literally just wanted to crawl outside of your body?
Like you’re just so disgusted by what’s happening within you that you want to escape it? That’s exactly how I feel going through a NATURAL MISCARRIAGE. There was not much physical pain (in the beginning), just lots of blood and heartache. My mind was foggy for a while trying to grasp what was taking place. I was present but not present. Just dazed. One moment we were celebrating our pregnancy and excitedly accepting our new beginning, and within days I was in the Emergency Room being told by the Dr., “I’m sorry but I don’t have good news.” Urine test, Blood work, ultrasound...no baby. Just like that GONE! I knew there wouldn't be a miracle taking place THIS time.